i've been branstorming with aryo about the sastro's website, and also merchandise. there has been some change of plans on our schedule. it seems that the band haven's quite finish their recording sessions. so they won't be realeasing their album till late january. in the mean time, i must move fast and collecting ideas buat si merchandise2 ini.
ficky just sms me, smacam senang karna dia ngabarin dia mau kemana aja hari ini. lumayan lengkap ampe ada jam2 kapan aja dia free. sometimes, his attitude makes me feel akward to miss him. basically, our relationship is a proof of akwardness existence.
this morning at prodak, i read a book which contents somehow entertained me a lot.. namanya Rosebud *5 - Mystery. isinya macem2 gitu, ada potongan2 tulisan, kalimat2 di ujung atas buku. which on each chapter title, ternyata potongan2 tulisan itu artinya melengkapi text si buku. ada gambar2nya pula gt. very contemporary indeed!
musti blajar pula!! i gonna face my finals next week, and for me.. it's freakin' frustrating! belajarnya gak kuat, and assignments are way too much to handle.. masalahnya, SDM-nya pada gak jelas, dan brainstorm kelompok gak pernah jadi2.. what kind of group am i getting anyway!! pffttttt ....
Thousand miles I wonder if You Ever Think of Me
Kings of Convenience ... playing Failure in the background.
i wish i can tell what he's thinking right now, what he really means when he told me that there was nothing between him and his ex. people can lie, and never have the intentions to make it up or to be trustworthy for others. they can lie, and they can keep on doing it. i dont wanna be the one who's being lied to. i need to talk to him, and i wish for the impossible to happen. i wish that i can read his mind, feel his heart, and understand his thoughts.
Mel Torme singing The Christmas Song ...
yesterday was a perfect disasterous day for me. paling mentoknya pas jedi called and told me that he saw ficky with another girl. i was shocked, hmm i'm still shocked. i can't really describe how i feel right now. realizing that i deserve the best heart from a man, gw pantes terima orang yang emang care dan sayang ama gw, for who i really am. who has a sincere heart. i dont know, whether i can trust him or not. bisa aja dia bilang dia rame2 tapi sebenernya nggak. i can think negative about him, but i guess ... i rather not. it would hurt me big time, it would hurt me when i'm really still on a healing process.
What Are You Doing New Year's Eve? - Various Artist from Christmas for Lovers
hmm that's a question worth asking. darn it, suddenly i feel like a loser, i feel lonely! :'/ i dont know where to turn to in these kind of situations. once again, i must face it all by myself.
